Awkward

Happy Birthday to my Dad!!! I love you Dad. I know you don't read this, but Im damn proud of you, and for all that you have given and sacrificed for me and your other sons and daughters. God bless you with long life and all that good stuff from now on!

My dad is hella funny. I called him and told him about how I went to the IHOP on University for the first time since he took me there the morning I moved in my freshman year of college, and he was like "wow, that's weird.....I bet I'll die now today, thanks" hahahaha. I was kinda like wtf, because it was so morbid but it made me laugh really hard. Good one dad.

I'm excited though now because I don't have a COMPLETELY empty Easter weekend. My dad is sponsoring someone for Confirmation the night of the Easter vigil, so he's probably gonna grab me on his way down there and we'll go to that mass together, hang out for a bit with his sponsee (??) and then he's finna roll home. So now I just need to find something to do for Easter day. Anyone got plans? wanna make some? hohk. Hit me up. Yea. do it. do it.

So have you ever wanted to say something soooo bad, but thought that it would be too awkward if you actually did? I have. It sucks. It's like having something to say, but knowing it will be too awkward if you actually do. That was a bad example. Anyway yea, in place of saying what I wanted to say, I hung out last night with a bunch of people who said awkward things and didn't care whether it was awkward or not. Awkward...bombs dropped everywhere. So good. Mel woke up first this morning, but no one really witnessed it so it's not a for sure. He's a sly bastard.

Some kids should stay at home. There were kids at McDonalds makin fun of us old fogies last night and I wanted to tell them to take their emo asses home, give their baby sisters' pants back and cry themselves to sleep. Instead I just laughed at one whose big nose and bad peach fuzz shit stain on his face were only made worse by the fact that he was throwing his head around to his "half rap, half rock" collection. Man, people don't beat their kids enough. And I'm white but I gotta agree with Asians, Blacks, Mexicans, Indians, Native Americans, and all the other races that dont fear their children. What the hell happened to a little punishment for a crime? Why are kids getting time outs all the time? I mean I got time outs, but I spent mine contemplating how to sit so the least painful part of my ass from my spanking was sitting on the ground. Whatever, Im not agreeing with beating your children, Im just saying they need to be beat every now and then.

I'm tired of blogging now, sorry for the crappy one, just sayin what I had to say, except that one awkward thing. But that's cause it's awkward...do I even remember what it is? not really sure. Anyway, have good weekend men and ladies. Peace and Love to you all.

"I'm just tryin to break out"

So Dee called me out. I need to blog. I don't know if 120am before opening the bookstore is the best time, but Im not sleepy right now. I am having emo aim sessions right now. I hate being emo. It reminds me of guys with small balls and even smaller pants. No mabuhay from them. Girls. Anyway, I dont want this to be a debbie downer entry so I wont be.

I'll tell you what's really G-E-W-D. Ash Wednesday and Lent! I have never had a lenten experience like this one! I mean Ive already fallen in some of my promises, like running every day, but it's ok because the overall experience of the sacrifice has been more rewarding already than most of my other lents before this! I really pray that I can keep this spirit of joy in all aspects of my life. I usually never thought of lent as a happy season, but I think it can be, it's just a more solemn joy, a recognition of the grace abounding in our lives and practicing the restraint to funnel that joy towards His resurrection, the pinnacle of our faith. I've heard of saints dying from joy, just being in such intimate union with Christ's love for us, and yet they died praying on a pew, not needing to draw any sort of attention towards their joy. Maybe this is my time to really ponder and "refleck youpon" the beauty of silence. Yay for humility. (sorry for the dig on fr. john francis, I really do love that guy)

Anyways, the emo-ness.....yea it's weird. Who woulda thunk that the white guy has feelings?? Hahaa jk, but seriously. Except for that one time when I got a lil itty bitty motorola walkie talkie while driving to homeless outreach and shouted "IT'S SO KEWT!!" in a very manly voice, I tend to be just manly. Well ok, the shoe thing, the clothes sometimes, and my attraction to mel and derrick aside, I am USUALLY less girly than more so. But when we get blindsided by these dumb things called feelings and emotions, men don't know how to deal. I think it's amusing how I/we try to react to it. I just say "eff it, Im not changing anything, it will go away." Most men would react the same way I bet, or never bring it up at all. I am now more girly for simply talking about the fact that I HAVE feelings, not even saying what they are hahaha. Weird.

Ok enough blankets and sheets crap for now, I would like to commend meechy for being so cool. I mean she's like an all-around kind of person! Forreals, she doesnt give in to peer pressure, even when the peers are close friends. She is the king/queen of aim so she can talk to you like you're the only one. Props cuh, props.

Big thanks to all who came out for skit practice you guys are seriously making it soo much easier for everyone else who also works hard. Much appreciated. Kirs you're owning that ish so keep doin whatever it is that you're doin. And thanks to the newbies, comin to watch wit big ol' eyes what spirit rally really is, and also to oldies for being good examples to the young 'uns. Yay for tomorrow! We have music practice for spirit rally!!! Woot.....oh wait I cant go because of my dumb paper that I should be writing right now instead. It's ok. Ill get it done.

Ok time to close it up. thanks Dee for calling me out. I enjoyed this. Hope you all did. Just a last note. I miss Dee, Dave, and Derrick. that's all. Love you guys (thats for everyone too ;)) Peace and love....