"I'm just tryin to break out"

So Dee called me out. I need to blog. I don't know if 120am before opening the bookstore is the best time, but Im not sleepy right now. I am having emo aim sessions right now. I hate being emo. It reminds me of guys with small balls and even smaller pants. No mabuhay from them. Girls. Anyway, I dont want this to be a debbie downer entry so I wont be.

I'll tell you what's really G-E-W-D. Ash Wednesday and Lent! I have never had a lenten experience like this one! I mean Ive already fallen in some of my promises, like running every day, but it's ok because the overall experience of the sacrifice has been more rewarding already than most of my other lents before this! I really pray that I can keep this spirit of joy in all aspects of my life. I usually never thought of lent as a happy season, but I think it can be, it's just a more solemn joy, a recognition of the grace abounding in our lives and practicing the restraint to funnel that joy towards His resurrection, the pinnacle of our faith. I've heard of saints dying from joy, just being in such intimate union with Christ's love for us, and yet they died praying on a pew, not needing to draw any sort of attention towards their joy. Maybe this is my time to really ponder and "refleck youpon" the beauty of silence. Yay for humility. (sorry for the dig on fr. john francis, I really do love that guy)

Anyways, the emo-ness.....yea it's weird. Who woulda thunk that the white guy has feelings?? Hahaa jk, but seriously. Except for that one time when I got a lil itty bitty motorola walkie talkie while driving to homeless outreach and shouted "IT'S SO KEWT!!" in a very manly voice, I tend to be just manly. Well ok, the shoe thing, the clothes sometimes, and my attraction to mel and derrick aside, I am USUALLY less girly than more so. But when we get blindsided by these dumb things called feelings and emotions, men don't know how to deal. I think it's amusing how I/we try to react to it. I just say "eff it, Im not changing anything, it will go away." Most men would react the same way I bet, or never bring it up at all. I am now more girly for simply talking about the fact that I HAVE feelings, not even saying what they are hahaha. Weird.

Ok enough blankets and sheets crap for now, I would like to commend meechy for being so cool. I mean she's like an all-around kind of person! Forreals, she doesnt give in to peer pressure, even when the peers are close friends. She is the king/queen of aim so she can talk to you like you're the only one. Props cuh, props.

Big thanks to all who came out for skit practice you guys are seriously making it soo much easier for everyone else who also works hard. Much appreciated. Kirs you're owning that ish so keep doin whatever it is that you're doin. And thanks to the newbies, comin to watch wit big ol' eyes what spirit rally really is, and also to oldies for being good examples to the young 'uns. Yay for tomorrow! We have music practice for spirit rally!!! Woot.....oh wait I cant go because of my dumb paper that I should be writing right now instead. It's ok. Ill get it done.

Ok time to close it up. thanks Dee for calling me out. I enjoyed this. Hope you all did. Just a last note. I miss Dee, Dave, and Derrick. that's all. Love you guys (thats for everyone too ;)) Peace and love....