Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Dante Derrick David

So I got the news tonight(or last night if you want to get technical) . I will miss you. But this post is not going to be about how much I want you to stay. It will not be about how sad we will be when you leave. It will not ask you to recant your decision, in exchange for a decision that would keep you closer to us. It will be about the strength it took to make that choice.
I didn't know what was going on when I got there; I held your hand in the circle for the shouting of those 3 special words, and we messed around like usual about being able to hold each others hands hahaha. But when you knelt I just kinda stood there. I got selfish really fast. I didn't think that it was necessary (go ahead kirs, say it) for you to be doing this. But it was right then that I realized how little I know you....I was only thinking about why you were leaving, when I didn't think about how hard it was for you to do that. I mean, bro, if I had to make a decision like that, leaving Liwanag to go to a city a ways off and find my way in this world, and in my walk with Christ, I would probably just make that far off city into one a little closer....like Irvine. Man, you got some guts bro. I've never seen you look so sad and bummed, but simulataneously steadfast and faithful that Christ's love will carry you through this new part of your life.

I sound like I'm freakin saying goodbye forever. I know it won't be like that at all, and I know we will be in touch, but I think I'm just in awe of the faith that it takes to make decisions in our lives, a faith I have yet to experience. I'm gonna freakin see you on saturday hahaha. WTF.

To all of those lookin to make massive decisions in your life soon (myself included in that) just pray. Take a hint from 3D and just let God decide what is best for you and your relationship with Him and everything else will follow. I think the reason Im responding this way is because of the fear I have been feeling of finishing school and not knowing what to do afterwards. I can commiserate with the impending hard decision.

I feel like a lil bitch writing like this, but whatever. He's a good friend of mine, I aint ashamed. I just feel bad I didn't know earlier so I could stay for break, but I have plans now. I guess that means trips out to Vegas....oh well =D.

So let us congratulate him in his choice, let us raise our glasses, our lighters, or whatever other thing you want to raise to him, and just remember........................................................................
...................................IT'S A CELEBRATION BITCHES!!