"You dance over me, while I am unaware"

Sup y'all, this is the first time in a while for me to post but I like posting a lil less, cause that means I have more to say and less crap to just fill space. 24....sooooo goooooood!!!! Maaaan. I don't want to ruin it for anyone who didn't see it, but daaamn whoever writes that show is insane, almost as insane as Jack, except they don't kill as many people. Or torture anyone. Or do that classic whisper yell...."please just TRUST me!". So. Good. Yea they definitely set a high bar for themselves this season with all the stuff that goes down just in the first 2 hours of the day, and my only hope is that they justify some of the sacrifices they made. :( RIP my friends. Yea thats right I said it!

Anyway, life has been just ok since school started. My quarter was all crazy at the beginning cause of the class situation and stuff. But only now as we head into the 2nd week I realize it's going to be a whole lot CRAZIER than I thought it would be. Ugh. He will carry me through it though so its ok. I guess I'm just kinda stressin at the end of this whole college thing; stressing about graduating on time, getting a job to pay the bills for now, and being able to look for a long-term, career-oriented job while doing that, so it's all snowballing into some crazy stress. I think on a significantly smaller scale Im feeling what Derrick went through discerning about Vegas and such, in that I am going to be making sacrifices in the future that will change my life and lifestyle and I just pray for the strength to meet these challenges head-on. My greatest fear is to not have the people that are in my life right now. I am afraid that the sacrifice I will be asked to make will separate me from them in an irreparable way. My prayer I guess is to do what God wants of me, and hopefully understand and be able to cope with any loss I may encounter, even though it is my least favorite thing to think about. We'll have to see how that goes.

I have a lot of laundry to do today, and I don't like doing laundry. But I'm running out of clothes so I guess its either sit here and do nothing, or do laundry and actually have something to wear besides these undies Im sitting in. hahaha just kidding, but I bet you're all grossed out now huh? So yea I will be starting that in a little bit.

Anyway I think I'm done blogging for now, I guess I didn't have as much to say as I thought several weeks off would actually have, but it's better than nothing. But then again, maybe it isn't, maybe nothing would be better than pondering my future and complaining about how hard I have it. I don't have it hard. I have it great. I am blessed, while just a little broken also. I can deal. Peace friends and loved ones.