"Measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking 8s"

The weekends suck here guys.

Being from far away doesn't allow me to make it home often, even on weekends like Mother's Day weekend. I could have made it home if I really wanted to make it work, but I have massive amounts of work to do, both UCC and otherwise, and I would want to concentrate only my fam cause I dont see them often, so the time would not be very productive. I regret not working harder this week so I could make it back. Anyway, I'm praying for my Mom as she continues to be the Matriarch of such an awesome family. She is the strongest person I know. I used to think my Dad was more in control of things than her, but she would go toe to toe with him and not flinch.....what a gangsta. I'm not gonna say a bunch of sappy stuff....that's for Mother's day. The reason I'm bloggin right now is to take up time. I am really sad on weekends cause people aren't online as much, and saturdays are the day of least contact for me. Being the social butterfly that I am, I cant go more than a few hours without hanging with someone. Did I just call myself a social butterfly? Whatevs, I am seriously dependent on others for company sometimes I think. I feel bad that sometimes I hang out with people simply cause I don't want to be alone. This is kinda selfish, and I'm sorry guys. That wasnt the case tonight, when I went to UCC choir practice, and then worked on programs w/Mike and Marites, and then afterwards to IHOP, but in general I think I chill without much thought of whether or not I am doing it self-servingly, or cause I genuinely want to spend time with the people. Wow I just woke up from this trance and read what I wrote, that's kinda crazy. I am a jerk.
But in all seriousness, I get really sad when weekends come. I have all of saturday to just chill all by myself and it drives me crazy. No one to talk to. no one to see. Yea Im just complaining. I can't believe I ask people to visit me while I work for 2 2hr shifts during the week when I will see them anyway, I should ask them to visit me on the weekends on saturdays preferrably, b/w 1 and 4pm. Wait, there I go being self-centered again.

This is hopeless, Im too tired and random to be making any sense....Im going to do shoutouts...

Janice- of course you're first, you blogged for the first time in a long time!!! after my prompting I might add. Anyway welcome back to the community!
Kirss- thanks for swinging by work, it made the last 15 minutes go by pretty quick. And watch those invisible crosswalks, they can KILL you.
Bball boys- yea good games to you guys, Dave, GP and Derrick. Thanks for letting me tag along. I hadn't played ball in a long time and it was cool to go back to it.
UCC Choir- thanks to everyone who shows up to practice to make the rally such a great event through which we can glorify God.
Mike and Marites- It's nights like these that I will remember and cherish most about UCC. Just us chillin, trying to do things we don't really know how to do, learning together, and then laughing about it the whole time. You guys are awesome, and I hope that we get at least one more program making night in together before the year is over.

To everyone else, you know I love you guys. If you come by and hang out I'll tell you personally how cool you are ;)

One Love

PS this pic below is my bro Nathan, and thats what my hair's going to look like after this summer.