I now understand.....
that my hard work doesn't mean shit to the powers that be.
that I have a lot of work to do.
that I can still do it, I just need to focus a bit.
that despite anger and frustration clouding my judgment sometimes, I am blessed by your presence.
the meaning of responsibility.
the way I've taken is flawed.
Dammit, Im so fuckin pissed. I hate the fact that I work my ass off like forreal all the time, at the expense of everyone and I end up looking like a total ass, not ever available to anyone and all that hard work goes unappreciated at work, and takes up so much of my time I don't get my other shit done. I probably use it as an excuse too often, saying I don't have time to do anything but then on my days off I don't do shit. Dumb.
I guess I had to get slapped sometime. Im just glad it was the experience and not someone forreal cause I don't take that well. And I don't mean actual slapping cause I dunno how I would take that, but in the metaphoric sense I don't take getting slapped by people well. Call it my defense mechanism if you want, but if you tell me I did something wrong I will probably just make fun of you. Yea real mature i know. I don't think this will help me to be very patient with you so if I am not patient with you, you can blame me just this once, but after today it's always your fault again ;).
Thanks for listening to my bitching. Some of you heard more than others but I dont appreciate those others less, cause they still listened. Thanks.
Surprisingly I dont even feel bad about sounding like a bitch cause I had a shitty day. We all deserve to bitch a bit.
Hope everyone is having a good day today. I really do. I hope everyone is having a great week!!! I should have put this at the beginning, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERWIN AND ANGIE!!! Much love my friends, can't believe it's already been like 3 years!! Have a great 22nd/23rd!! And since I won't blog again for a while Ill say happy bday to Kathee and Kaylene also!!! Man o man, I remember 2 years ago like it was 2 years ago! Good restaurant in Fullerton, with lots of good food and Kathee's former favorite Pear Cider. I think she was surprised I offered to buy for her. The only reason I brought that up is cause I always remember that fondly as the first time I felt really cool cause I was invited to a bday occasion. That's all. No reminiscing for me.
Ok well I'm sorry that I started this off pissy, but I'm glad I spoke with people while writing so I could end on a much more positive note. Have a great day people.
Labels: ang, erwin, kathee, kay, pear cider
posted by Joe @ 6:49 PM
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7 Comments:
Hey bro, I feel ya forrealz. I got your back always. We ride together. We die together. Bad Boys 4 Life. Haha.
HEY THANKS FOR THE PEAR CIDER. It was my last drink that night and what a way to close out my 21st.
You should buy one for me every year homie.
HEY! you know what i remember from kathee & kay's bday 2 years ago?
think think think. it has to do with the fact that i am really short. i hope you remember! haha.
anyway, i hope all is well. if you need anything, i'm always an IM away.
take care :) and prayers always.
Wow....it is really refreshing to hear someone of intelligence write their feelings. I do that a lot and none of my friends really care or even do it themselves. I bet your wondering, "Then why are you friends?" Well, we go through life being friends with people that we have no business being friends with. Anyway, i just wanted to say that despite the fact that i've only been to your work once, i just wanted to say that i really appreciated how you took charge with the warranty thing. I mean i was VERY impressed that you just busted out all this math and totally fixed my problem. I was SUPER bummed about the whole theft thing but YOU made me feel like atleast one thing went right that day. If that isn't a good employee, or even a good person, than i don't know what is! You are such a stong individual, i mean i hardly know you but from what i can tell, and should be VERY proud of yourself! You graduated college AND you have a pretty decent job! Don't let trivial things get you down you are SO much better than that! From other people's comments, i can see that you are very loved and have some very good friends who would have your back no matter what and who truly apreciate you. One of the hardest things to do sometimes is to take the time to appreciate the little things about someone. The little things that go unnoticed. Like the fact that you wear a black watch on your right hand (which means either that you are left-handed or you are just weird like me and go against the mold) and for some reason wear a rubberband on your left hand. Black is a very bold choice because most watches are either gold, silver or sporty-like. Anyway, the point is that sometimes you just want people to notice the little things. Just want people to say, "Wow...it's kinda weird and cool that he does this." or "Isn't it nice how he always does this...." There are people out there who appreciate you...may me it's time to open your eyes and take the time to appreciate how they appreciate you!
Well, that was longer than i thought it would be. LOL! Take it easy and don't stress!!
Always here to appreciate the little things,
V
(LOL! if you don't remember me i was the one that came in to buy a pink sony vaio)
hoh k.
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w0w. (see other comments above)
prayers meng. i know we don't really talk much, probly cuz i do my whole awkward dumàs thing when we do try so it kinda breaks the seriousness of it all, but just know that you're not the only one that feels like that. i guess it's just another one of the ways we good/nice guys get taken advantage of? cuz i think it's sorta true in some ways how the saying goes, "nice guys finish last..."
no? not so much?
wutevs. peace.
†biJ,
beej
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